i dont think my mama said there'd be days like this. but here they are. nonetheless. i tried to remain optimistic throughout it all. but energy is what it is. it moves and settles and ignites chaos.
internally. i am nuts. externally. i am humming songs and sitting thru the fire. waiting for god to bless me with something more than silence. i am not a mean or evil person. things tend to happen when i least expect it. and i forget stuff. not intentionally. but i do. sheesh.
i feel so, tacked to a cross, right now.
............................ this is me trying to be optimistic...