i'm sorry momma

i never meant to hurt you -- i never meant to make you cry, but tonight i'm cleaning out my closet!

that's where i am right now. cleaning the hell outta my apartment. movin' thangs around until they suit a more refined me. cleaner. more space. less junk. more focused. i can't wait. but i have to figure out the shoe situation. i mean really. i have about 70 pair just sititng here - looking at me... most of them have boxes because the baby cat Cosi decided she liked italian leather too soon in her life for me to try and kill her.

i am happy for my sis, Bassey. she is going to be a great one. for someone more important than those that sit in the audience and judge... trust me sweetie. you were born for this :)

ive been working out more reguraly. it hurst more than you know. atleast i dont hate it as much anymore.

and the foot. oh boy. the foot is still all hell, i've just learned how to ignore the pain and remove the shoes quicker. i cant wait for the operation that will straighten them out and allow me to rock my shell toes once more... huuuuuwaaaa

i can't write
wite
white
wiiiite
damn...

i will work on it. something in this will make you feel alive.
again.