Monday, December 19, 2005

block ya blessings - reasons to believe

i)
i worry about her. even if i don't like her much. she is only a part of me by default.

ii)
i have so much to do and not enough time. or enough strength. or enough something. but then i get an email. from a sister. a friend. my family. they believe in me. they have faith in me. and that is enough to keep me going.

iii)
fighting myself over titles for the new album. i love the title: Black is the Color of Woman. jive doesn't get it -- the incorrect grammar. i tell him it is what it is. that isnt enough. he's write. i have to be able to find the words beneath my tongue and spray paint them if anyone is to understand this life. these words. this pain. working dilligently.

iv)
he plays me. musically. the inspiration that pours from the turntables thru my ears are filled with life and movement. aspirations and struggle. i never want him to stop playing. me

v)
this summer is the retreat for the writer's series. i'm going. if i have to sneak in somebody's bag - trust me. it will happen. this is what determination looks like.

vi)
amari was beautiful on stage this afternoon. singing off-key like her voice couldnt tear into my heart with just a whisper.

vii)
ahh. the voice over recording was successful. i think we had 9 takes and only 2 full run-thru's. i felt so confident when my voice spoke back to me thru the speakers. will have a screening of the english version as soon as i get the dvd. you'll get the invite.

til then
bklyn readies for cali

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Mo,
Question not.
You are great.
You are greater than great.
I live vicariously through your blog.
When ever I speak of my favorite contemporary sister stage/page poets that do the whole damn thang WELL - you rank in the top five.
Brooklyn misses you when you're gone.
Smooches,
Your long lost Big Sista PhyaStartah

Mahogany L. Browne said...

good to see you are still shining! thanks for fwd'n sankofa. that was beautiful - thought it has yet to come in fruition, it's all love to know that you are still thinking of those that think the highest of you! :)

Dez said...

Mo' hey cuz, just lettin' you know we love you, luv you two both and miss ya lots.

"i have so much to do and not enough time. or enough strength. or enough something. but then i get an email. from a sister. a friend. my family. they believe in me. they have faith in me. and that is enough to keep me going." - I feel you on this one, I feel the exact same way and have felt that way since I was in my early teens. I see myself everywhere doing everything.

But just wanted to let you know that you really inspire me, always have. I mention you all the time :o) Anywayz, see you in cali soon.